He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
- Isaiah 40:29-31

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Clearing out the yellow crap

No, this post is not what you think. I hope the title isn't too misleading. That's just what I think of the methotrexate. The chemo Joshua's getting right now is yellow crap in my book.

Little man is doing great. His energy level is high and he is clearing his chemo much faster then we expected. That's good on a number of levels. First, it will get us out of Hotel Hopkins by tomorrow. Then, the faster he flushes it out of his system by way of pees and poopies, gives us the chance that the side effects will be less. Can I just tell you that I have been constantly pushing food and drinks in his hands for the past three days. And Joshua being my great eater has had no problem with that. Today, he had a huge brunch of chicken nuggets and french fries. I finally was able to grab some pizza a little while later and he ate half of that. Then he says, "what about my milkshake." I'm thrilled that he has such a good appetite. The effects of the chemo will hit in about 5 to 7 days so we'll see how things go.

And tonight I left him in the hospital for the first time since his relapse. I almost feel guilty but one more day on the inside and I think I would have went crazy. So here I am, home alone since Noah and Adam are with Nonna and Pappy at the county fair. I beg for silence all the time. I dream of "me" time. And yet, here I am. I'm missing the boys and their noise. Oh, and Jeff too. Yeah, I told you three days in the hospital and I'm already starting to go a little crazy! But, I'm really hoping that tomorrow night we'll all be back under one roof, with the boys fighting and the chaos. I'm really looking forward to our "normal."

3 comments:

Keith, Kathy, Collin and Will said...

so glad to hear that the little man is feeling okay so far and that everyone will be home 2night!!

Jeff Cz. said...

Daddy here,

Mignight mex levels @ 0.09...
Check please!!!

Jeff

PS - We miss you too. ^_^

Anissa Mayhew said...

I know the struggle between what you want and what you need seems to go on forever, doesn't it? I don't know if I'll ever get it figured out.