He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
- Isaiah 40:29-31

Monday, September 7, 2009

What am I going to do?

Tomorrow is the day. It's the day that Adam and Joshua will go off to school for the very first time. Pre-K. I am sitting here tonight and thinking that for the past four years, I've had these boys by my side. Every day for the most part and tomorrow, they go off and start school. Of course I'm worried about germs and sickness and all the yuck that they will bring home. I know that we'll have to spend a few days at Hotel Hopkins because Joshua picked up something at school. But, they need to go. Adam has been held back and has waited to go to school. Joshua needs to go off and learn that mommy isn't always there. And well, Mommy needs to learn what to do with the next chapter in life. I've always thought about what to do when we get past the cancer stuff. I have ideas and thoughts but cancer has consumed so much of my life that I've never got past the "day dreaming" part. The reality is that life is going on with the cancer or without it and the kids going to school is a part of that. The boys have their plan and now I have to figure out mine. Of course that's after I catch up on what's been put aside for the past four years!


Priscilla said...

Ami, I feel your "what now?" pain! I, too, am trying to catch up on things that I've put aside for years- reading, scrapbooking, and of course, laundry! (-: Hope they have a great first day and that the germs stay far away!!